take a listen to your spirit, it's crying out loud

Fleetwood Mac
There comes a time in a woman's life when something shifts and she can no longer stay quiet; the truth of it all becomes too loud. For me, (and I suspect if you're reading this for you, too) that time is now.

Here, I explore life as a woman on the other side of quiet.

My essays, ruminations, and explorations include thoughts and questions surrounding love after divorce, relationships, family, friendship, my inability to say no, and my underlying quest to discover what it means to be a woman of a certain age who is not who I was told I should be, would be, could be, ought to be: a wife and a mother.

Within this site lies my truth and perhaps, a bit of your truth as well.

This is all that I left unsaid.
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Latest essay

sorry about the time i hoped all over you

How were you supposed to know the girl who sold
​herself as the cool girl, the low maintenance girl, the easy girl, the not-like-any-of-the-other-girls girl would turn into just that?
I know how I looked. I was cool, low maintenance. I could hang with your friends and beat you at bowling. I made odd pop culture references and quoted movies your last girlfriend never wanted to watch. You didn’t have to call me, or text me, or contact me all day, every day or even for days at a time. I let you do your thing. I could laugh about (but somehow make it seem like I never physically did) urinate, defecate, expectorate, flatulate, ... any of the “ates”. I wore trendy rompers and made it seem like I actually wanted to sit at your weird friend’s house for long periods of time while you guys got high and listened to music. I was fun, funny even. And I was nothing like your last whatever-it-was. She was crazy. I was different. 

I was easy.

ABOUT ME

Emily Vitrano is an actor, teaching artist, and writer living* in the Chicago area. You can follow her acting career at www.emilyvitrano.com. She hates "about me" sections. 

*Ms. Vitrano feels it is imperative you know she is not from Chicago, but rather lives near Chicago, as she is originally from Milwaukee, WI and any confusion regarding where she is from will surely become a source of unmitigated stress for her family, all currently residing in the Milwaukee area. In fact, her recent procurement of an IL license plate has caused much unfortunate strife for her father, brothers and nephews, as evidenced by their preference she park "a couple blocks down" when visiting. Ms. Vitrano apologizes to her family in advance for mentioning Chicago in her bio. 

​I mean, you can friend me on Facebook but it's not that exciting.

did you, I don't know,
maybe, perhaps
wanna be ... pen pals?

    ... Obviously
You know, I believe we have two lives. The life we learn with and the life we live with after that.
Bernard Malamud, The Natural
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